A couple of weeks ago I had a nightmare - that on our wedding day, everything went wrong, I wasn't ready, the wedding entourage started without me, I was holding a bouquet of grass instead of the flowers I wanted, the photographer did not show up and Malvin arrived late and was wearing his favorite red robot tshirt and his hair was shaved to the skin on both sides of his head. I woke myself up and thanked God that it was just a dream.
When I told my sister about it, she said she too had the nightmare (she's also getting married one week after me). So I guess this is quite normal for brides to have these nightmares due to our fears.
But here's another thing - for weeks I had been feeling these chest pains, I had difficulty breathing, plus I felt my heart beating fast, like I was so nervous about something. That's why I've already cut off my coffee intake, I thought the palpitations might be caused by too much coffee (I only have 1 to 2 cups a day usually). It happened intermittently, and usually it happened when I was not preoccupied with something else, so sometimes on my sleep, especially during my one week business trip in Taipei on the last week of November, I kept experiencing these chest pains, like something tight was tied around my chest. Then last week was the worst attack - I really hyperventilated and I did my best to calm myself down. I really thought I was seriously sick but I kept procrastinating to see the doctor. But finally, this morning, I managed to have myself checked by the doctor and I was so relieved when the doctor said my blood pressure is normal and he didn't tell me any heartbeat irregularity or any sign of sickness.
When I told my sister about it, she said she too had the nightmare (she's also getting married one week after me). So I guess this is quite normal for brides to have these nightmares due to our fears.
But here's another thing - for weeks I had been feeling these chest pains, I had difficulty breathing, plus I felt my heart beating fast, like I was so nervous about something. That's why I've already cut off my coffee intake, I thought the palpitations might be caused by too much coffee (I only have 1 to 2 cups a day usually). It happened intermittently, and usually it happened when I was not preoccupied with something else, so sometimes on my sleep, especially during my one week business trip in Taipei on the last week of November, I kept experiencing these chest pains, like something tight was tied around my chest. Then last week was the worst attack - I really hyperventilated and I did my best to calm myself down. I really thought I was seriously sick but I kept procrastinating to see the doctor. But finally, this morning, I managed to have myself checked by the doctor and I was so relieved when the doctor said my blood pressure is normal and he didn't tell me any heartbeat irregularity or any sign of sickness.
WHEW!!!
As of now, the chest pains are gone. So I guess it's just really anxiety and stress as the wedding day approaches. It's like suddenly there's just too many things to do now to make sure the wedding goes as how we want it to, to make it beautiful, and I got so tensed about it that I panicked. I'm amazed actually because I really didn't expect that I'd be hit by stress from our wedding preparations. I thought I could be cool enough. Apparently, I wasn't. But thankfully, my hubby-to-be is. :)
12 days to go! woot!
